My Fucked Up Journal

hey..

Sun, 15 May 2005 19:26:14 GMT

um. hey guys. i know i haven't updated in forever. sorry. umm..i just read..emily's LJ. kinda hurt, so. i gotta go.

things are fine with everything else. trevor, friends...just that entry...i dunno.

HOLY CRAP

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 03:58:03 GMT

ok. i was just looking at my friend sarah's deviantart profile, and i decided to read today entry. lemme get you a lil bit of what is FREAKING ME OUT!!!!

"Stephen and I are going with Natalie and Trevor to see "The Pacifier" tomorrow...so that'll be fun. HAHA, Trevor told Stephen that he wanted to make out with Natalie, but he was afraid to because they both have braces, and he was worried that they'd get stuck together. XDDDD I told Stephen that we should bring wire cutters to the movie theater with us, and he agreed wholeheartedly."

O_O

WOAH!!!! we've been going out since feb.8th, and we haven't kissed(tho i've given him kisses on the cheek)so i just thought he was shy or something. GUESS NOT.okay, this day worn me out. i'ma go to sleep. later!

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I'm gonna sing the Doom Song now! ^____________^

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 02:28:55 GMT

ello ello luvs! time for a lovely update. me and meeza are oober excited for Wednesday March 9, 2005. why? <.< >.> BECAUSE WE GOTS A SHOW! yes! a show! we're performing "the hunger" by the distillers. meeza's singing and playing geetar, i'm singing, and jeff's doing the drums and "DON'T GO!!!" parts for us. ^.^. oh! aaaaaaannnnnnnnnd i asked him if he would wear eyeliner and he said he would! woo! we're(me, meeza,and jeff)gunna come in early again on wed.(at like 4) so we can fine-tune the song and maybe change some things. trevor said he'd definitely come(*glee*) and stephen said he might. i'll hafta check with some other people. oh yea! on saturday, jeff's band(August Avenue http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=8138344&Mytoken=20050303183038) is playing at a place called Linda's Cafe and me and meeza(...and my dad) are going!!!! *GLEE* uhhh what else happpened. oh gosh! on monday i believe, me and meeza were in sam goody, and in walks these hot dudes. they have these awesome leather jackets with pyramids all over them and awesome bands' patches. one dude had an army-type coat and mohawk, but it was down. anywho, after they left,me and meeza went upstairs. we look down, and the guys are on the kiddie rides! one dude is skinny enough to fit into this lil bus, and another is riding a lil car. it was hilarious! speaking of down mohawks, trevor left his down today! it was like all combed to the front. when he came around the lockers in the morning, i was like holy fuck, he's even hotter. mmmmmm i'ma tell him to wear it down more often. but i think he was getting annoyed by all the people going "woah! you put your hair down!" i could tell he was thinking of something rude and sarcastic to say such as "oh no, really?! i coulda sworn i put it up, asshole" but he's way too polite to do that. ummmm nothing else has happened that i can think of. if something does happen, i'll write it in. later!

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I 'MEMBERED SUMTIN'!! meeza sent me "the doom song"!! she also burned me New Found Glory's "Catalyst" in exchange for me burning her Skindred's "Babylon" which trevor burned for me. and corey burned me HIM's "Razorblade Romance" which i also burned for meeza. woo! okay. done.

IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT THEN FIRE AT WILL!!!

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 16:59:34 GMT

woo! ello ello people.gah i'm so bored. we didn't have school yesterday because of the snow, and that's happening again today. i'd be happy cuz this may mean that i could spend time with trevor, but he has family from australia in. uhhhh wednesday we had a field trip. the most pointless and boring field trip i have EVER been on. the whole field i think was just on the damn buses! i didn't see trevor 'cept for when our buses were passing each other and i didn't see meeza, or tasha, or allyn the whole time either. but that night was yoof and that was much better. trevor couldn't come because he had a quiz to study for. BUT! he coulda came because that next day was a snow day! but it was still fun. we had a lovely top 10. it was The Top 10 Things.....Yo Mamma Taught You. and i've heard some of them before, too! anywho, it was so funny. afterwards, meeza and I went with jeff to his car to listen to his new song.........WHICH IS AMAZING! it's an acoustic geetar and him singing in his lovely voice...then an awesome scream from him! i had no clue! another side of jeff is added to me and meeza's ever-growing list. it was so awesome. then we listened to a local band who i forget the name of......then my dad came and drove me and meeza home. and after two snow days, here i am. oh, stephen called on thurs. cuz he wanted me to come over for games and stuff, but i just wanted to stay inside. i dunno if the other he called could come. so i begin another long, boring day.....melting into the long, boring weekend. ugh. so i am going to go commence my long, boring life. later!

i almost forgot!! CJ told me that on the trip, trevor redrew the my chemical romance cover as me and him. *glee* i feel so speshull. i can't wait to see it. trevor is an amazimo drawer, as well as an amazimo boyfriend. so polite, too eh meeza? XD

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lalaalalLALALAAAAA

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 16:43:45 GMT

woo! heya people. sorry aboot the lack o' updates. hmmm..what's happened? well we got V-Day. trevor got me godiva chocolate(to which i said i woulda been happy with a Hershey bar), a lovely card, and some awesome earrings. i got him an amazimo necklace. and on wed. he came to yoof! damon was talking about distractions, and then we played pictionary. trevor went up to draw, and damon told us to do anything in our power to distract him. we tried to find his tickle spot, and we messed with his mohawk. it was awesome i gotta say. oh! yesterday was allyn's b-day! it was at the ice rink. much fun was had. i got her a two-row pyramid(stud)bracelet and an awesome necklace. danae and tasha were hinting that they had gotten her thongs, so allyn was very much afraid to open their gift(as she had every right to). eventually, danae and tasha just took the bag and allyn ran to the other side of the room. they did indeed get her thongs, but took them in the end. trevor looked absolutely terrfied. i was just in shock....yet not because this seemed like the kind of thing they'd do....and i'm thanking God i didn't have a big party like allyn. oh gosh! we saw AJ! apparently, his lil bro was having a b-day party, too in the next room. i got up and said hi and what-not, and when i sat back down, trevor was all "this aj guy seems suspicious" i was just like "......" but anywho, it was fun. if you recall from previous entries, you'll know i SUCK at skating, so trevor was really helpful. he held my hand and kept me up. i was actually going pretty fast(with trevor still holding my hand)by the end of it. it was rather funny(me and trevor thought)when aj came flying into tasha, meeza, and others, causing them to fall to the ground. mwahaha. toward the end, me and trevor went off to play air hockey. when we got back, everyone was already changed out of thier skates. and as i'm taking my skates off, trevor holds his skate(a 9) next to mine(a 4)and just looks at them. i say "what?? i have small feet!" and he says "it's okay. i think your small feet are hot" i was having trouble controlling my laughter, but i did it. lalalala we drove him and meeza home. hmm...today. sarah, stephen, meeza, phil(a diff phil...i forget his last name), trevor, and i went to da mall! so that was fun. we just hung out for the first lil bit. went to hot topic and spencer's. then we went to waldenbook's where we all looked at bunny suicides. trevor kept telling me to please not get any ideas and when i looked at him, he just had this kinda sad look in his eyes, but his face wasn't sad. it was confined to his eyes. i felt like it brought me closer to him somehow. i dunno. so then sarah bought the first bunny suicides for her sis. then trevor got the 12th rurouni kenshin book which reminds me that i have totally missed it on TV.............GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. oh well. so then we walked around for a bit, and then stephen and trevor wanted to get new earrings, so we all chipped in and got these cool earrings that are closed with lil spikes on the end. then me and meeza had to go and i've ended up here. woo! yea i'm done. later people!

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well..

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 17:26:47 GMT

well...yesterday i found out the reason why sarah feels betryed is because trevor gave her a letter saying he didn't wanna go out with anyone right now because he didn't "know himself" yet. well...he got to know himself preeetty fast. i dunno why..but i feel....bad. like i contributed to sarah's sadness. i dunno. meeza says i shouldn't feel like this and sarah isn't mad at me at all. but i dunno. i just feel.......bad. ugh. i dunno. but anywho, me and meeza are goin to the mall today. sooo...yah. i'll write later.

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WAYHOO!

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 04:00:27 GMT

ello ello luvs. so sorry for the lack of updates. hmmmm...well..what has happened? i'm not thinking of anything terribly big except for tuesday(feb.8th). trevor asked me out. i loved the way it came about, too. me, stephen, and trevor were sitting by my locker. stephen looks at trevor and says "do it." trevor looks at stephen for a couple seconds and says "oh fine," he then looks at me straight in the eye, cocks his head to the side,and straight out asks, "will you go out with me?" i blink a few times then ask stephen is he forced trevor to do this. trevor says, "no, i was gonna do it anyway, he just got in the way," i tell him to give me a block and at lunch i tell him yes. but i found out some interesting info in choir(block before lunch). i was talking to stephen, christy, caylyn, and lauren. they were all excited because apparently this has been planned out. lauren had said, "yea, i knew from the beginning," so i was like, "well when the beginning?" she says, "about three weeks ago." at that point my jaw dropped open and i was thinking "he's been spending three weeks planning on how to ask me out?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?" lauren said he was a lil afraid. but anywho, all is good now......wait...i shouldn't say that. see, trevor's friend, sarah, had a huge(i mean HUGE)crush on him, but he simply didn't want to go out with her. he just wanted her to be his friend. well..today i found a disturbing picture sarah drew of her stabbing trevor, but i can kind of see where she's coming from. she feels betrayed. but then i think, why should she feel betrayed? he never said he wanted to go out with her. but then i feel like i'm betraying her when i think those things. *sigh* anywho. i found out from stephen(a very reliable source of info i'mfinding out)that trevor is getting me something for valentine's day, so me and meeza are going to the mall tomorrow to find something for him. gosh i'm tired and i dun have anything to write about. later people!

.............>< i just realized i now have to go back to all my profile sites and change "single" to "in a realtionship" *sigh* it must be done.

I WUV EMILY ANN BROWN!(not expecting that, eh?)

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WOAH

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 03:37:16 GMT

wow. meeza told me that last year on this date, nathan asked her out.......JANUARY 21ST IS CURSED!!! oh yea. a lil tidbit of info. yesterday was mine and phil's 3rd month going out. i doubt he remembered that, let alone the date he asked me out(oct.20th). yea i'm done now. later.

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heya people

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 03:05:51 GMT

ello people. time to update. uhhh...nothing really to say...but today. me and phil broke up. he had CJ give me a note bascially saying that we've never really known each other too well, and that we should just break up. but he did want to stay friends(unlike two other people i know *stares at meeza*)so that's cool i guess. i sent him a note saying i completely understood, beacuse..well...i did. i seem to be doing fine. but who knows...i'll prolly burst out crying at some random moment in my room and won't stop for an hour. alrighty. moving on. there's supposed to be lots of snow ova the weekend, so hopefully we won't have skool. and on wed. we have off, so me and meeza wanna go to the mall to get trevor's b-day gift(his b-day is feb. 5th btw). uhhhhhhhh........i can't really think of anything else.......so later.

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doot de doo d00t DEE DUM da DOOOOOT

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 18:12:20 GMT

ello ello luvs. sorry i haven't updated in a while. hmm..what's happened? i don't remember anything from the past week, so i guess nothing big happened. but on friday, it was "crazy hair day", and trevor had put blue gel stuff in his mohawk. looked awesome. stephen bleached the top of his hair, but it looked kinda orange-yellow cuz he has brown hair and brown hair is kinda hard to bleach in one setting. then after school, i went to the mall to see trevor get a second piercing in his left ear, and stephen get his left lobe pierced. i was there for a lil bit, but then trevor came. i got the second rurouni kenshin book, too *glee*. tomorrow i should be getting the third. i'm being all carfeul with his books making sure not to bend the corners. that's a habit i have. anywho, we sat there for a bit and stephen and leslie(did i spell that right?!)came. oh yea! trevor's lil bro, noah,(who's 7)almost got his ears pierced. but then trevor's dad(who's really cool)said they had to talk it over with "Mom". after the piercing, we went to hot topic for a bit. then we went to waldenbooks and trevor got the tenth Rouroni Kenshin book. then he left, and a lil while later meeza joined us. the leslie left, and it was only me, stephen, and meeza, then we met up with lauren, erik, matthew, and some chick i dont know. then we went into...*cringes*.......*says in small voice*abercrombie and fitch.....yes, A&F. it smelled weird in there...like AJ...but the chairs were rather comfy. i felt weird in there. *shudder* moving on. i lost my $10.50 ring, so i bought a 7.25 one at a cart. i like it. doesn't spin, but oh well. ummm...then we went home. saturday, didn't do anything, yesterday, didn't do anything..well..i drew. i drew some people from the RK book trevor lent me. tehehe. they're on my wall now. and today, i'm doing nothing. exciting, huh? oh yea. meeza told me that diane and loralee from yoof wanna make a mini bible study and wanna have it in my basement. we prolly could, just need a date and reasonable times. uhh..if i think of anything else, i'll update again. later.

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W00T!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 03:52:28 GMT

today was very awesome i gotta say. went to hairport. me and meeza got there at EXACTLY 11:33am. took many pictures of trevor gettin his mohawk done. it was so funny. but awesome. me and meeza think he should dye it since he has bleach blonde hair(not dyed i swear to you). we photographed the whole process. it was schweet i gotta tell ya. then we went home. well i did. meeza had piano lesson. then we were rather bored around 3:30 and our friend ashlee invited us to da malllll. we were like "YES!!!!" hung out there till 5:30-ish. it was fun. the mohawk was the best tho. he looks amazimo. with it up or down. i feel really bad about saying this, but trevor's fucking hot. and the hawk just adds to it........i hope he NEVER sees this. XD welll...tay..i'm gun go. later people. note to self:get trevor's e-mail to send pix. weeee!

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I hate this

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 02:11:48 GMT

I really hate this. my parents are fighting again. i know i've never said anything about it before, but they've been fighting a lot lately. i feel like they might get a divorce. i can hear them from downstairs. well, i hear my dad. goddamn i hate it. i wanna talk about something else.ummm, today was alright. mr.slevin(our dean)kept watching me and phil tho. it was actually kind of funny. at lunch trevor let me have his nutri-grain bar(those things freakin' RULE)...then i proceeded to put a pop tab down the back of his shirt. he didn't get mad. never does. oh! he's getting a mohawk this weekend. should be awesome. and his mom is letting him get his second hole on his ear opened again. i dun feel like writing anymore, so i'm gonna go. later.

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WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 05:50:26 GMT

WOO! today was fuuuuuuuuun. i haven't seen phil in 11.....12 days, but today was actually fun. i woke up and finished a book i was reading. ate lala. my grammy sent potica overnight(it's some kind of mexican pastry REALLY good).had three slices of that. around 5:30 strted to get ready for the partay at yoof. got there early and had some fun. later, me and meeza were stupid and volunteered for some ice cream eating contest. but before that was a coca-cola chugging and the people had to take off their right sock and put it over the top of the coke and THEN they had to pass it to the right and chug the coke thru the sock which was DISGUSTING, but hilariously funny. when we went up damon(the youth pastor with the evil evil sick mind)made us eat the ice cream with our hands behind out back so we had to just use our faces. me and meliza kept laughing tho. and some ice cream got up my nose which wasn't too pleasant. then we had a junk food relay(though i wouldn't really call the food junk food). you had to go up to a table, take something from the bag and eat it as fast as you could. i got bugels and doritos. it was fun. oh and before that i finally got a hold of phil. he was away somewhere(i forgot to ask where)and he apparently was watching his lava lamp. but anywho, me and meeza were goofing around too much and he was laughing at us and hung up. i'll call him tomorrow...er...today. then i found some silly string and went psycho with it. mwahaha. then we started to watch some concert thingy and a comedian came on he was soo funny. he was like "have you ever gone to a grocery store, put the two things you're gettins down on the check out counter, stood back and crossed your arms then have the cashier say 'will that be all?'" then he goes "what!? these two things? oh no. i just got them out of the way. i want the rest of the store! these two DISGUST ME! i want everything else. IT SHALL BE MY EMPIRE!!!" we were laughing so hard. then my dad picked me up and now i'm here. hi. well i'm all typed out. later peeps. HAPPY NEW YEAR!....woo..parrrrtayyy. *</:p>.<)\m/KEEP ROCKING

cold......sore throat.....blah

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 19:17:17 GMT

ello ello people. hope everyone had good x-mas'.i now shall list off what i got.

1. a jack skellington pillow
2.liquid eyeliner(black)
3. silver nailpolish
4.red nailpoilsh
5. "Office Space" in DVD
6.$70
7.Hot Topic gift card
8.Lostprophets shirt
9.HIM shirt
10.Sex Pistols shirt
11.pink tank top
12.snoopy pjs
13.a bag of hershey kisses
14."Smokey Eyes" eyeshadow
15.lil compact mirror
16.chapstick(my lips get all dry for some reason cuz of me braces)
17.star necklace
18.silver bracelet
19.12 different colored sharpies(one of THE best gifts)
20.nightmare before christmas earrings

more is coming today, too. anywho. nothing much has happened over the break. i had a dream last night. about phil. i'll tell you about it. ~*~we were back from break. everyone was by my locker. lala. phil comes around the corner. i'm putting stuff into my locker. hpil sits down next to me. i finish up at my locker and sit down. he's about to put his arms around me when i notice a magazine i forgot to put in my locker. i grab it and turn to put into the locker. suddenly, everyone's gone and it's just me and phil. he stands up so he's level with me and says "you're avoiding me. i'm suspicious." you know like i'm cheating on him or something, which i could NEVER do. well, i'm hurt by this and i kiss him, but he doesn't kiss back. i kiss him again, and this time he shoves me away and practically spits in my face. he says something about him moving and goes to his locker, and comes back with his backpack. by this point, i'm crying, and he walks right in front of me. i look up at him, he doesn't even glance at me, and i see tears in his eyes. he just keeps walking. then i wake up. i had tears in my eyes.~*~ not exactly the dream i wanted to have. i hated it. i wanted to forget about it. i couldn't go back to sleep, though. all i could do was think about that fucking dream. i haven't seen phil in six days. today is going on the seventh. i miss him so much. i hope he knows i would NEVER cheat on him. mm. well. i'm gunna go. later.

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bored..cold...in pain...........but happy XD

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 04:32:48 GMT

ello ello people who read this. today was cool. i went x-mas shoppin(i ain't putting ANY if the gifts i got people up. mwahaHAHA! you'll haveta wait!) uhhh..went to the ortho to get a wire clipped. got sum other stuff done too. went to the nativity thingy yesterday wif meeza. gave AJ his present. he didn't try to molest me(thank God). called phil today. this is hilarious. i was talking to phil, and i told him i got me braces, and he goes "uh oh. we gotta be careful if we make out. we could get caught." then we were going on about different situations. like if we were at his house and we were caught, and we heard the garage going up or something. or at skool. i was like "yea a teacher would come up to us and go 'well now, what's goin on here?'" phil said "we could go 'umm...it's a science project..to see..um..how body temperatures..react....and we got carried away'" it was awesome. mmmmmmmm i wuv him so much. i haven't seen him in four days. he even said "i haven't seen you in forever! i miss you." grrrr. i wanna hug him, kiss him, hold him. i hope i dun haveta wait till jan.3rd to do those thing either. well my mouth hurts and i wanna go back to talking to emily. later!

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Geez, i'm hungee...

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 16:10:43 GMT

Yea, like i said. I'M HUNGEE. but i'll update before i go stuff my face :). this week was a gooood week i must say. i mean on wednesday, AJ didn't try to molest me..he stole my red sharpie for a bit, though....and still has my CDs. he shall be dealt with later. but school was mighty good. every morning i would come in and then phil would either be there or come over shortly after i came in. tehehe. it was fun. i would lay on him and he'd have his arms around me. he's one of the reasons i get up in the morning. but mostly i get up because i know i'll be talking to emily at some point. oh yea! i got her package the other day. she sent me a power rangers shirt her brother(corey)didn't want. it smelled SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. lol. and she sent me a pirates of the caribbean necklace and when you open it, orlando bloom is in it. she couldn't find a johnny depp one. and she sent me some awesome drawings she did. and she sent some pictures from when i visited, and her and corey's school pics. i was showing them to everyone. and she sent some perfume that smells good. and a CD called A Santa Clause:A Punk Rock Christmas. it rules!i know em reads this, but i dun care. me thinks i'll send her a mix CD of songs i wuv. i wonder if i can find that song by from first to last called "Emily". that song looks amazing. tehehe. called phil yesterday. we talked for a lil while. he told some interesting things. they're all about me, too. he said that i was hot, and that plenty of other dudes agreed. then he was like,"Can i tell you something without you getting offended?" well, if you know me as well as emily(i dun think ANYONE will ever know me as good as her), or if you know me kinda well at all, you'd know i don't get offended easily so i said "yea, go ahead" and he says "You have a GREAT body." i was just like "haha. i feel so speshull!" he goes, "i'm serious! i see girls with these tiny shirts on and then there's this lil bit of flab hanging out." and i just started laughing. my mom thinks i'm a lil too skinny, in fact. anywho, i was just laughing. then we talked for a lil more, he had to go after a while. it's been pretty uneventful since then. sometime after one o' clock today i'm going over to meeza's to work on jeff's shirt. woo! i'll prolly write later. peace out!

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UGH

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 01:55:55 GMT

bleh. i called phil today. he said isn't coming to yoof now. he "doesn't feel like it" i'm sad now. this sucks. i'll be "alone" not really, but almost, with AJ again. i dunno if he really cares that i practically get molested every wednesday. i dunno what goes on with him sometimes. i dunno how long were gonna be able to go. we have good days and crappy days. i, of course, prefer the good days. they're usually really good days. i love him so much...but it seems that he doesn't care sometimes. when he does care i certainly know it, though. maybe it seems i don't care. i hope he knows i care. i hope we go on. i don't want to break up. add that with other stuff going on, and that could be bad. okay self, tomorrow we give phil a whole lot o' attention. tomorrow, he knows i care. tomorrow, and all the days after. I LOVE PHILLIP CRAIN

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Nuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhthin

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 02:24:46 GMT

nuhhhhhhhhthin to say really except....

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nuhhhhhhhhthin to say really except....<_< >_>...PHILLIP COMIN TO YOOF!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...as you can see i'm very happy.tehe.........yea i'm done

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it's sooooo cold

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 22:38:08 GMT

like i said..it soooo frickin cold! yea, anywho, me and phil have made up :D weeee. i knew he'd forgive....i still dunno for what but.......i'm hard to stay mad at. especially if you're my boyfriend.....though i've never had a boyfriend to forgive me before phil...anywho. WOO! lunch was..interesting. near the end, we all started doing weird talents for some odd reason, and my god trevor is...flexible..to say the least. CJ is just....ugh. his talents were just digusting. i mean i wouldn't be surprised if he loses his vision soon. trevor was the best tho. *gives big trophy to trevor* hmmm. anything else big happen? i dun think so. if something does, i'll write. later.

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I dunno...

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 02:28:14 GMT

well ello people. meeza couldn't come over. her mom wouldn't let her. her mom doesn't let her do much if anything. even MY mom thinks that. welp i'm talking to EMIWY and meeza right now. the necklace i sent em BROKE! grrr. i'll get her another for x-mas and inspect it verryyyyyyy closely. maybe i'll even superglue it where it looks like it's coming apart. XD hmmm...i'm having meeza call phil to see if he's still mad at me. i hope he isn't. i mean come on! get over it! that may sound mean, but seriously now. blah. WOW! meeza called him and he says "hello? do i know you?" and she says "yea...it's meilza" he says "ok bye" WHAT THE FUCK?! GET OVER IT DUDE!! *heavy sigh* well i'm done. later people.

bored...

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 19:27:16 GMT

ello ello luvs. well not much is going on. i'm talking to erik, meeza, and AMANDA. i just had some AMAZING cake my mom made. YUMMY. haha. meeza is prolly coming over today to help me learn some geetar(guitar). mwahahHAHA. ummm. called phil. he's still in a bit...er......a big bad mood. he hung up on me..again. :(. *sigh* well tomorrow i'll make him forgive me...for what i don't know. the thing was supposed to last until 9:30, but i'll make him forgive me none the less. i have *ahem* my "ways". ;) mwaahaHAHA! *gets out whips, chains, handcuffs, and other various painful pleasures* w00t! haha. hmmmm. i think that it for now. oh, i'm talkign to alex now, too. alright. i'll write later. bye ppl!

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GRRRR

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 04:32:15 GMT

well, today i went ova to meeza's house to work on the shirt(we're only doing one now) for jeff. we bought a bandana for AJ and decorated that with bunches o' awesome bands he likes. it was fuuuuun. we had to go to michael's and jo ann fabrics..well...we got the material and shit at jo ann's....we got candy at michael's :). ummm...called phil. apparently....he had been at the rink since 7:30. and left at 8:05. WE GOT THERE AT 8:10!!! grrrrr. i was mad. he hung up on me. :(. i'll prolly call him tomorrow. *sigh* anything else terrbily exciting happen?.....i dun think so. so i'm gunna go. later people.

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LALLALAAAAAA

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 04:32:46 GMT

WOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! today is mai BIRTHDAY!!!! and yesterday was EMILY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!! sowwy for the lack of updates. some of the days i was puking up my stomach, so i hope you all understand. lala..what has happened? hmmm....not much. haha. wanna know what i got for me b-day? i'll tell you even you don't wanna hear...er...see it. i got a jack and sally hoodie(mom and dad), gir earrings(CJ), bracelet and....pink...shirt.....(meeza and sarah)...lol, an AMAZING drawing(trevor), a nightmare before christmas calendar and a foamy the squirrel shirt that says "someone should stab you in the eye with a really hot french fry"(phillip), a vanilla bath set and a cucumber melon bath set(grammy), gloves with the tops cut off and skeletal design(rhianna my sis), and cash(grandpa gene), and two thin sharpies(allyn). i'm prolly getting emily's package tomorrow and she should get the one i sent her tomorrow as well. well, i went skating today. everyone who invited came, except for the dudes(figures, huh?). *sigh* i was really sad that phil didn't come. after skool he tells me "see you tonight" and he doesn't show up. i almost cried when i got home. hmm......AJ was there. i had no clue he was gunna be there. he was there for hockey. he's rally good on skates. anywho, i was sitting, and he's saying "where's your boyfriend? is he still here? want me to kick his ass?" then "come on birthday girl, skate with me." i got up to tell meeza sumthing, went to go sit back down, and he takes me by the waist and picks me up taking me to the rink and i'm saying "no AJ, put me down!" we get to the ice, and i swear, he pushes me so he "catches" me, still holding onto my waist, and is going on about doing this and that with my skates, i dunno, i wasn't really paying attention....i was thinking about how much i wanted phil to see this. is that bad? i dunno. i might call him tomorrow...............i dun really know right now. i'm not mad or anything, just sad that first he says he's coming, doesn't show up, and doesn't call or anything to say he's not coming. wellllll....i'm gunna go people. later

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weeeeeeee

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 03:56:38 GMT

ello ello luvs. i went ice skatin' today with meliza and CJ! oh and CJ is cool now. i have no more problems with him. i fell flat on my back and brought meeza down with me. she fell on her knees. CJ didn't fall. he's a fast little bastard on those skates. lmao. i SUCKED! but meliza wants to go EVERY WEEK. it's my "workout". hopefully phil can come next time and we can fall over each other. haha. nuffin happend at skool that was interesting. it was crazy hat day, but i didn't hear the announcement so i didn't have my pimp hat :(. but i had fun pulling trevor's joker hat down over his eyes. he didn't get mad at all. haha. he's already started on the drawing he's gunna give me for my b-day. he had a lil folder at lunch that had the drafts and stuff in it i guess and he was drawing so i couldn't see and firmly keeping it shut when he wasn't working on it. he rules at drawing, too, so me thinks it's gonna be AMAZING. hmmm..i dun think anything else happened. if i think of sumthing i'll write it in tomorrow. later people!

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WOW Pt. 2

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 21:40:53 GMT

alrighty. continuing from yesterday. well we were headbanging and it was awesome...my neck really hurts today though, but anywho, when we were done i wanted to borrow AJ's(he's the guitarist for the praise band and plays the drums sumtimes, too. he's 16 and.........hmmm...odd isn't the right word......wrong?..i dunno)rufio CD. oh going back to the very beginning of yoof. he had put it on and i started singing to a song and he like grabs my head and says "oh my god! i love you!" then quickly switches to "this chick is sooo awesome!" i was like "....uh huh...". kay, back to where i was. i wanted to borrow his CD and he's had my GC CD and my mix CD for i dunno how long anymore. i ask him about them and he grabs my wrists and is like "i brought them to this party and now this girl won't give them back. i'll get them, though, i promise!" and i break away goin "mmmhmmm." and then he says "i love you. does that help at all?" i just stand there and say "no it doesn't actually." i go stand by my friends. lala. i go over to the stereo and sit in front of it and i get his CD and put in my pocket. i'm sitting there and he comes over and he's like "hey, where's my CD?" then he turns and looks at me for a sec then grabs me by my shoulders and shakes me. as i'm about to say it, meeza says "you know she has a boyfriend, right?" she goes on to say "yea, he's a blackbelt, too." AJ says "yea? well i have a black shirt." we go back to doing nothing...or so i thought. i sit there singing and i feel something going on at my pocket. i look at and AJ's trying to get his CD out. i grab it and try to get up, but he grabs me, waist, shoulders and holds me trying to "get it back" but i mean he's enjoying it wayyyyy too much. he's giggling and all that. then i finally make it up to be standing and he grabs me again and now he's going toward my "lower danger zone" and i have the CD by my stomach. i finally break away. after that i wondered "why isn't meliza helping??????" i dunno. i give him his CD and i begin to walk out and he says "natalie, don't gooo" and i practically run out of there. whew. otay. today. mmmm...nuffin really. phil gave me his linkin park and happy tree friends wristbands cuz he claims he doesn't wear them anymore. i think his mom wants him to get rid of them. his mom, by the way, doesn't like that he hangs out with "gothic" people. he used to dress in black everyday, but his mom makes him dress more....normal i guess. he still wears black occasionally..i think it's to piss his mom off. haha. and he was wearing these...i think they were nike..or reebok..sumthing like that for a while, but now he wears his red converse. umm..nuffin else happened i'm pretty sure. later people.

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